See the blog title, I think this will be a quite "down" blog post. Oh no...I won't let it happens, I'm trying to share my thought and my feeling in a more motivated way.
In the past three weeks, our schedule are packed with assignments and class test. A hectic life in our semester 2. Yea, I admit that I had gone through a simply tough time during that time. Well, it's not tough if compared to two years ago. Really. I believe I will never gone through a tougher time anymore.
Last time, when chit-chatting with one of my friend at my house, I told her that I ever gone through a very very hard time during my secondary. At that time, I really wish to give up everything, give up my life, and give up my wish. I forgot my dream, forgot what I actually wish for, forgot everything, include my friend's love, my parent's love and also, myself. I become another people, I am not myself anymore. I cried easily, and laughed sadly. Even until right now, I still can remember how much I cried on my birthday in two years ago when I made myself to get sick and escaped from class on that day but when I woke up, I saw there were two red eggs on the table and a short paper wrote:"happy birthday to my darling" from my dad. When I saw it, I really cried for so long, I never realise that how much my parents love me. Only when I've gone through this, I just can realised that how stupid I was during that time. Two years later, on my birthday, I still can remember this feeling, and this, made me more cherrish on what I have right now.
In this one and the half year, I grew up a lot, think differently, and have a very happy life, even sometimes I will look backward, to the past, and stare blankly, think that whether there will be a different ending. However, I'm glad that I always got the same conclusion: I won't regret that I was being such stupid, because this makes me look into the world in a different way. Still remember that in my previous blogs, what I wrote were those negative thinking, negative words. A very funny things that I remembered is in a dairy that I passed to our class teacher, I've got a comment about "only when a human live, he/she can see how beautiful is this world". I remember that during that time, I thought that this world is so flirty, so dark, so.... I felt tired to live, felt tired to smile to those I don't want to smile with, felt so tired to breath, felt so angry to this world, angry that everybody being so realistic. But right now, I'm glad that I'm still alive, I'm glad that I have been gone through all the toughness. Now I believe they said "God never give you the hardness that you couldn't go through."
However, I thought that I am sure what I want for my future, but just realise that it's not really, until the week before. I have to admit, even when I think that I have forgot the past, even that I'm sure that I don't blame anything, even that I won't regret for anything I did in the past, but in my deeper heart, I still think that "what if" I can realised earlier, then I think I will have a better life, and I won't be in this course. This not means that I dislike this course, I like it, and I pretty sure that I will be happy with the job in the future. But then, I have a second thought. I will always think that what if I realised earlier, perhaps I will be more hardworking to study, perhaps I can get into the course I urgh for more. This thought ended last week, during the midnight, when I put down my notes, and think for everything. I think I should take action to chase my dream, not just a word, but make it happen. I knew that chasing a dream isn't that easy, it needs courage and perseverance. Courage is what when everybody think that this is impossible, and you still insist to make it happen. That's what I'm facing, but I'm not afraid as previous anymore, I promised to myself, I want to make my dream to happen. Even when I faced failure, but I won't let it affects my determination. This time, I wish to prove that "I CAN".
So, readers, if you have a dream, don't be afraid, just proceed it. Don't make your dream to be a word out from your mouth, but use your action to make the dream to become the realistic. Believe yourself, and only when you believe in yourself, you can succeed. Don't be afraid to start slower than the others, don't be afraid to face the failure, don't let anything to be your stumbling block. Winston S. Churchill said that "Success is not final, failure is not fatal; It is the courage to continue that counts". So, let us work hard together and achieve success.
Live your dream when you are alive.
Don't be afraid, and never give up.
See the blog title, I think this will be a quite "down" blog post. Oh no...I won't let it happens, I'm trying to share my thought and my feeling in a more motivated way.
In the past three weeks, our schedule are packed with assignments and class test. A hectic life in our semester 2. Yea, I admit that I had gone through a simply tough time during that time. Well, it's not tough if compared to two years ago. Really. I believe I will never gone through a tougher time anymore.
Last time, when chit-chatting with one of my friend at my house, I told her that I ever gone through a very very hard time during my secondary. At that time, I really wish to give up everything, give up my life, and give up my wish. I forgot my dream, forgot what I actually wish for, forgot everything, include my friend's love, my parent's love and also, myself. I become another people, I am not myself anymore. I cried easily, and laughed sadly. Even until right now, I still can remember how much I cried on my birthday in two years ago when I made myself to get sick and escaped from class on that day but when I woke up, I saw there were two red eggs on the table and a short paper wrote:"happy birthday to my darling" from my dad. When I saw it, I really cried for so long, I never realise that how much my parents love me. Only when I've gone through this, I just can realised that how stupid I was during that time. Two years later, on my birthday, I still can remember this feeling, and this, made me more cherrish on what I have right now.
In this one and the half year, I grew up a lot, think differently, and have a very happy life, even sometimes I will look backward, to the past, and stare blankly, think that whether there will be a different ending. However, I'm glad that I always got the same conclusion: I won't regret that I was being such stupid, because this makes me look into the world in a different way. Still remember that in my previous blogs, what I wrote were those negative thinking, negative words. A very funny things that I remembered is in a dairy that I passed to our class teacher, I've got a comment about "only when a human live, he/she can see how beautiful is this world". I remember that during that time, I thought that this world is so flirty, so dark, so.... I felt tired to live, felt tired to smile to those I don't want to smile with, felt so tired to breath, felt so angry to this world, angry that everybody being so realistic. But right now, I'm glad that I'm still alive, I'm glad that I have been gone through all the toughness. Now I believe they said "God never give you the hardness that you couldn't go through."
However, I thought that I am sure what I want for my future, but just realise that it's not really, until the week before. I have to admit, even when I think that I have forgot the past, even that I'm sure that I don't blame anything, even that I won't regret for anything I did in the past, but in my deeper heart, I still think that "what if" I can realised earlier, then I think I will have a better life, and I won't be in this course. This not means that I dislike this course, I like it, and I pretty sure that I will be happy with the job in the future. But then, I have a second thought. I will always think that what if I realised earlier, perhaps I will be more hardworking to study, perhaps I can get into the course I urgh for more. This thought ended last week, during the midnight, when I put down my notes, and think for everything. I think I should take action to chase my dream, not just a word, but make it happen. I knew that chasing a dream isn't that easy, it needs courage and perseverance. Courage is what when everybody think that this is impossible, and you still insist to make it happen. That's what I'm facing, but I'm not afraid as previous anymore, I promised to myself, I want to make my dream to happen. Even when I faced failure, but I won't let it affects my determination. This time, I wish to prove that "I CAN".
So, readers, if you have a dream, don't be afraid, just proceed it. Don't make your dream to be a word out from your mouth, but use your action to make the dream to become the realistic. Believe yourself, and only when you believe in yourself, you can succeed. Don't be afraid to start slower than the others, don't be afraid to face the failure, don't let anything to be your stumbling block. Winston S. Churchill said that "Success is not final, failure is not fatal; It is the courage to continue that counts". So, let us work hard together and achieve success.
Live your dream when you are alive.
Don't be afraid, and never give up.
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